major crossroads in life we are faced with choosing the direction
of our thinking andour attitude. Will we stay within our safety
zone or are we ready to expand and explorethe unknown?
thought direction and attitude are we going to choose? The answer
lies within and we can help
ourselves to “hear” it by asking ourselves a few questions,
motivates my choices?
is my intent and purpose in making my choices?
I choose because I “know” that it is the most
productive choice at this time in my life?
Nin: “And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud
was more painful than the risk it took to blossom”
if I struggle inside, I should want to know which influences
prohibit constructive thought directions and attitudes.
my thoughts and attitudes manipulated by fear,
complacency, insecurity, revenge, anger, frustration,
or lack of courage?
will make constructive choices when we know ourselves and are
able to discern between the inner voice of spirit and the
sometimes rather loud voice of the personality that wants to keep
us bound to its agenda. By the way, regular meditation will help
to hear that answer clearly.
I reached a major crossroad on my journey through life. For many
years my life was comfortable, predictable, familiar, and
rewarding. Then a situation occurred that could mean major
changes for me, changes I thought I would never have to even
contemplate. Well, maybe it was the recognition that Anaïs
so perfectly that stirred in me and allowed me to be open for
expansion and change.
potential of major changes was triggered by outer circumstances.
(Was it really?) My husband had very successfully concluded the
last term of his professional position and needed to find a job
in a new company. A new job opportunity presented itself, but not
in our current location, which was Hawaii.
those weeks between his first contact with the potential new
employer, the interview and finally his acceptance of their
offer, I had plenty of time to get in touch with my own feelings.
It was an exercise in knowing myself, knowing my fears, hopes and
desires as well as my feelings of responsibility and obligation.
It was challenging for my emotional, mental and physical being,
but I also somehow “knew” the new adventure was part of my
higher self’s plan for me.
but steadily, one realization stayed with me: I could bring all
that I’ve learned and studied to another part of the world. It
was an opportunity to reach out to people. It also occurred to me
that the new location could represent another karmic and dharmic
responsibility to be fulfilled. As I contemplated and meditated
on this possibility, the answer became clearer. The place I was
leaving was well endowed with practitioners of the universal
philosophy and was therefore well taken care of. I was aware that
the place I would find would also be well endowed with those
universal practitioners, but I knew, if I was meant to be there,
there would be space for me to share and express my being and
so it was. My new hometown has plenty of intuitive readers,
spiritual ministers and teachers in the universal philosophy I
follow, but the welcome I received as I offered my services was
warm, inviting and encouraging.
seems that my husband and I are both given a new opportunity to
take on another life’s adventure. Well, the adventure began and
it just feels right. In conclusion, if we are not sure about
ourselves and which part of us is talking, then asking some
pointed questions and taking them into contemplation and
meditation, will lead us to an “inner knowing” that is hard
to explain, yet very clear and precise.
other words, we just know which thought direction and attitude to
follow. The next step is to discipline the part of us that is
afraid, complacent, untrusting etc. and to have faith and trust
in our inner spirit’s voice and to make this step into the
unknown knowing that spirit never gives us more than we can
our decision making process we can also get insights from
exterior sources such as intuitive and psychic readers or
spiritual counselors to assist us in gaining clarity and greater
self-understanding and self-realization.